i'm at a complete loss for something to do. having finished my translation (and gotten paid, mwhaha) and having no other real pressing work, i am sitting here with a hell of a lot on my mind. my body cancelled all operations before and put me to bed so i know i won't be tired until it's far to late to get enough sleep for tomorrow. fucking cycle man. i hate it.
so of course i turn to a journal, forgo capitalization, and provide some words for an audience.
it's been long since i've wanted the weekend this much. i just want to know that i don't have to worry for a couple days. this whole 'worry' thing is not doing me any good. the worst worry is the kind that creeps up on you, and manifests itself as a tenacious mental cloud that makes you say stupid shit and forget things. you don't feel especially stressed, but you feel the gravity of things making your day harder. the only real remedy is a weekend to center one's self. this is done by drinking with friends, which is exactly what i plan on doing.
i'm going to make a game out of tomorrow somehow. i'll start by wearing clothes i haven't worn in a long time. what sort of sucks is that i haven't had a migraine in a while, so i'm probably going to get one on sunday. fucking hell.
i really don't know how to make this entry worth your while because there's simply nothing worth saying. oh! yes there is. to produce a dozen eggs, a hen has to eat about four pounds of feed. i learned that from a friend.
Posted by Alchemae at September 30, 2004 11:50 PMCompletely unrelated..
But I just visited you main page for the first time in a long time (being the RSS junkie that I am), and I have to say it's incredibly foobared in Safari. I'm not sure you care...but I figured I'd just let you know. I can give you a screenshot if this is the case.
Posted by: fugimax at October 1, 2004 12:20 AMThe game you have planned for saturday sucks at this point. it needs more objectives i think.
Posted by: rope at October 1, 2004 11:34 AMYou learned that from me!
Posted by: 007 at October 1, 2004 06:45 PMI hate worrying as well. That creep-up-on-you sort of worry you described has been eating at my soul quite a bit in recent months (years?), and I don't like it even a little bit. Perhaps we can chat sometime about how you get yourself out of such messes when they manifest themselves.
Posted by: jen at October 7, 2004 09:45 PM